Kissed!

My mom was watching a movie today. I was on the computer on my fake Facebook account. That friend of the guy whom I loved ( go to this link if you don't know what's this about: http://thatgirlyouadore.blogspot.in/2014/05/romance-in-my-life-what-disaster-help-me.html) was online. I was chatting with him. He said he loved me. I said I loved him too( I really do. I'm so confused. Coming to that later. he treats me like his princess. I really love him). He said he was feeling romantic and he wanted to see me and hug me... tightly. Then he said he wanted to kiss me all over. At that moment, my heart skipped a beat and I felt all jiggly wiggly inside - like jelly. Because I wanted him to kiss me. I  wanted to kiss him and not his friend, the guy I loved (I really don't know if I still love him. He's too late, I guess.) I REALLY DESPERATELY want to kiss him. I want to stay in his arms forever. :( What do I do? How can I be rude to such a sweet guy? HOW? I should be rude to that guy who says I should "concentrate on my studies" and not to that guy who's his friend and who says "baby you're my life. I'm gonna die without you." He cut himself for me. I feel so bad. SO SO BAD. Why didn't the guy whom I loved feel bad when I cut myself for him? Is he immortal or what? or heartless? Someone please kill me. I gotta die. I don't know how to handle this. :(

He sent me this image too. I'm crying. I deserve to. :(